second half of the first...

never finish my first post cuz my phone must display everything a little differently...but my children are in bed so i have nothing better to do. yes i already hear the negativity in my words...but thats why im here writing to...well hopefully no ones reading? lol cuz this may end in a rant..idk. i used to be such a calm laid back person. i had pride in describing myself as a calm relaxed quite person who loved to laugh and did it often but now i only find myself yelling and bitching and my depression and stress have definetly gotten the better of me. so long story short i believe somehow i will get back to this.carefree laughing girl who is more like an adult and a mom too now. hm...somehow. im in no rush but yes id like my sanity to return soon...and thats all for now. =|

A SECRET ONLINE JOURNAL?! CLOSE ENOUGH..

well its easily said my life is hectic with 2 kids...2 boys which really translates into little gremlins. dont feed after midnight and definetly no water--scratch that, no sugar. anyways...after saying that im going to say im also bored. not just "oh wow..theres nothing to do today" bored but bored like i have zero friends here, no job, no spending money (no im not a bum) and as much as i love my husband and kids staying home 24/7 playing dinosaurs is not what i want to do...well 24/7...